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theeverydaygoth: evilsoutherngentleman: eugenent8: love this...

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 14:25:37 -0400

theeverydaygoth:

evilsoutherngentleman:

eugenent8:

love this couple

Such delightful creatures.

Should I ever get married…yup.

I concur!

OMG DBZ!!!! so true…

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 16:33:45 -0400

OMG DBZ!!!! so true…

did-you-kno: Valeria Lukyanova is the self-proclaimed “most...

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 12:52:44 -0400

did-you-kno:

Valeria Lukyanova is the self-proclaimed “most famous woman on the Russian-language internet”. The 21 year-old Ukrainian first made a splash in her native Ukraine and neighboring Russia a few years back with her anime-style Barbie doll looks.

After she first hit it big on the Russian-language internet, netizens started digging through her old social networking posts and profiles, cataloguing all the surgeries she’d undergone—from nose jobs to rib removal.

Source

People have ribs for a REASON!!! to protect their internal organs! I guess some people just deserve to die.

Am I cursed? Loki… I will always feel your pain!

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 12:40:51 -0400

Am I cursed?

Loki… I will always feel your pain!

did-you-kno: Source Carry on XBox players…

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 19:20:58 -0400

did-you-kno:

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Carry on XBox players…

did-you-kno: Source Our mornings are filled with SOOO MANY...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:18:44 -0400

did-you-kno:

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Our mornings are filled with SOOO MANY KISSES! It’s our routine.

“I will try again tomorrow…”

Wed, 18 Jul 2012 09:19:51 -0400

“I will try again tomorrow…”

Birth control should be for men… And lucky for modern...

Tue, 17 Jul 2012 19:26:22 -0400

Birth control should be for men… And lucky for modern technology they are working on that.

Truth.

Sat, 14 Jul 2012 12:57:19 -0400

Truth.

did-you-kno: Source F*cking Dolphins!!!! EVIL!

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 20:38:14 -0400

did-you-kno:

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F*cking Dolphins!!!! EVIL!

Epiphany.

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 12:25:56 -0400

It remains a mystery to me what brings out these moments of clarity… But there are just times where you abruptly stop, look back, and say to yourself “I’m stronger than I could have ever imagined.”

For awhile now I’ve been having disputes with God about why he has always had to put me through the flames of hell to learn a lesson. It seems as though every life lesson I have ever learned has had to be done with fire and brimstone. I don’t know why it has to be burned into my flesh, but I’m sure there is a reason.
I do honestly believe that everything happens for a reason, and even when I’ve felt like it was “the end” something has always pulled me back. Like “okay, you’ve had enough…” My mom describes her faith as an anchor that never lets her stray too far. It held her in place and pulled her back in when it was time to move on to new waters. I feel that now too.

When I felt like my world was collapsing, almost a full 2 years ago now… I didn’t know what was wrong. Everything should have been fine. I had a life that most people would want. On the outside it was perfect. On the Inside I was screaming. The few people that knew didn’t want to help. I kept reaching out, but even I didn’t want to admit what was wrong. I remember sitting down in the psychologists office and bursting into tears because I was so damn unhappy. My marriage was failing right after it had begun, and after 7 years of fighting for that relationship every day in a solo battle, I just broke.
I was at her office almost a month before I admitted the problems to myself. Hell broke loose. Every day a new battle emerged, from fighting with my ex, to struggling to get through my day in my old hellish job, fighting to keep up the act around family and friends, and finally struggling through the divorce proceedings alone.

Fighting for my marriage had turned into fighting to get my life back. Struggling to fix all of the holes inside of me. All of the damage he had done. Realizing that a relationship is a two way street and knowing that I couldn’t live like that anymore.
And I raged at God. I was, and at times, still am mad at God. I thought with everything I had been through that it had to work… I tried. I know not a soul believes me, but I tried and fought a very silent battle. The turmoil behind closed doors broke into the open as my depression completely took over my life those last 9 months. I had become so insecure. I had lost everything. Every day was a new fight. And I lost a lot of friends… Or people I thought were friends. If nothing else I had certainly learned some valuable lessons about friendship and family bonds. And that’s okay. I didn’t ever want it to be a “pick sides” thing. I just wanted the courtesy of the benefit of the doubt. The courtesy of the looking at it and seeing the common denominator wasn’t me or anything I could control. Somehow I still ended up with the blame. And Even that is okay to some extent.
The good news is I’ve come to terms with those loses. No love loss on some accounts, but there were some that shook me to the core. Which is probably why I keep my heart so locked up these days. I have only recently allowed myself to open back up to people.

But now… Removed from all of that madness. Away from the daily hell and self imposed scarlet letter of divorce I had worn as a battle wound because I DO believe that marriage is sacred and I am ashamed of it.
NOW…

Now I am happy. Finally happy.

Because of all the shit I have been through I now know what it feels like to be happy. I know what it MEANS. I appreciate every moment. I have an amazing man that is there for me. Who has been. Who has been through the fires with me. Someone that lets me cry and rage, and just holds me. Someone who loves me unconditionally. Someone who takes care of me when I’m sick physically or just sick in the head from the trauma I went through. Loves me in my good moods, bad moods, and great moods… Loves me always. And I love him. And for the first time, I think I know what love actually is.

And I turn to God again and say “Why now? Why did you give him to me now? Couldn’t I have learned these lessons without becoming such a wreck? Why did I have to go through hell to find him? …Why lord? Why?”

I always get silence as a response.

I don’t think I’ll ever understand. Not completely. I never thought I took life for granted, so I don’t know why I need an axe to the face in order to learn… But there is a reason.

And now that I am happy. Now that I know what it is to love someone and be loved unconditionally in return… Now I am in wonder. Complete awe.

I look back at everything, and I say to myself: “Courtney, you are stronger than you could have ever imagined. And now you are surrounded by more love than you could ever have hoped for.” Thank you.

This is my feeling today…

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 08:15:31 -0400

This is my feeling today…

annarettberg: Meanwhile… “No Way Out” at Buffalo...

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 20:55:13 -0400

annarettberg:

Meanwhile…

“No Way Out” at Buffalo Wild Wings… Meanwhile…

Words to live by.

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 15:24:18 -0400

Words to live by.

did-you-kno: Source I believe it. I’ve almost thrown up...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 16:25:03 -0400

did-you-kno:

Source

I believe it. I’ve almost thrown up a time or two…

Exactly! This is my libido.

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 13:31:50 -0400

Exactly! This is my libido.

wowfunniestposts: this blog is epic Looks about right…...

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 21:30:16 -0400

wowfunniestposts:

this blog is epic

Looks about right… #Goatface

Unless your a vampire.

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 21:24:14 -0400

Unless your a vampire.

wickedreapingbeauty: theeverydaygoth: Amen. For...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 20:46:30 -0400

wickedreapingbeauty:

theeverydaygoth:

Amen.

For Mattchu

PANTS OFF DANCE OFF!!! (I do this every day when I get home from work!)

But most women’s jeans don’t have useful...

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 20:28:21 -0400

But most women’s jeans don’t have useful pockets… But still. I agree. I find curvy women more attractive, and I’m comfortable enough to admit that I can find other women attractive.